anticipation

A gift from friends. There it is. A plush rocket ship with aliens and astronauts inside. This is the kind of thing that makes me freak out with excitement about our kiddie coming to live with us. This little person is probably born already, living in Colombia somewhere. I wish he/she was with us now so we could play with this very rocket ship today. They could smell the sauce I just cooked. They could see the sunshine streaming through our front windows and sign and coo and make gurgly little baby noises. I could sit here and stare at them and wonder how anything could be so beautiful. Is it possible to love a child you've never met before? A child that may not even exist yet?